Pic with Mammaya and cousins taken in Sun cityIt was hard to see him get admitted in hospital every now and then for few months, then the unexpected road accident, then the frightful 4 long days in ICU, all this just to let him leave us all.....
It was even harder to allow his body to undergo the postmortem. Don't know why but I've been revisiting mama's death more often and still having trouble to accept that he isn't around, I just don’t want to explain how I am feeling – Don't have words to explain :(
He meant so much to me....My Best friend and My mentor.
It’s hard to believe we've lost him. We've lost that part of us which he held: as a friend, a family member, a Guide, a best critic, a son, a father, a brother, a good teacher, a disciplined man.
I know..that we cannot see you now, cannot hear you talk , cannot hear you laugh, cannot hear you asking for "One cup tea", cannot hear you crack jokes, cannot go outing with you,but can only remember you, the way you were! Just the way u were!
Things have changed so much, its not the same any more, but still the days are moving on... from day to night but you aren't here. I wish you were here still to guide us, to celebrate, to laugh, to love, to hug.
I wish you were here for us, more than us, for athama, Chaki n Vinee....
Even though we have a hope to see him again, our heart aches in waiting....
Its June!! so herez Wishing you a very Happy Birthday!!Love you Mammaya...
Miss you a lot!!
The Verse of comfort which stuck me while writing this Blog,
2 Corinthians 4:16-20 Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.
This verse reminds us of the hope we have to see him again :) Thank you Lord for this hope.
Waiting to see you mammaya :)
5 comments:
MISS U DELHI MAMA........cant control the tears..rolling dwn.lov
Hmmm... donno wht to say...
Memories still fresh in my heart too... invigilation... papercorrection... nd how can I forget the scoldings tat I got for switching off the TV while he was watching some tribal show :(...
Still hear those cries!! ........... its resounding in my ears
Well this page will not be sufficient to write about my memmories of Babanna..I still remember the red color barbie doll that he bought for me and I combed that doll's golden hair till it got bald...and mom's yelling still echoes in my ears "abbabba bodagundu chestunavu a bommaki, a Babu ki cheputa unkokasari boma thevodu anni..I remember gettting letter from babanna and mom reading it loud "Babu is coming on this day" and we used to be awake till late night 12am and fall asleep waiting for Babanna and all of a sudden at 3:00am some one knocks the gate and mom says "edi levvu Babu ochindu, babu ochindu" and we used to wake up "babanna ochindu babanna ochindu", there appears an Army man and yes first thiIng is TEA...then he used open the toys... still remeber one nice game he brought, it was educative, flower names, bird names, fish names...red color light..I have learnt "poshke" word from him, which means "egg shell"...Late night while mom will be sleeping he used to tell us jokes and make us laugh, mom used get disturbed and yell at babannnaa "orey Babu thantha ra ninnu a pillalni naupisthe", poor guy he used get the yelling but this didnt stop him, he used to start to wisper and we used laugh lowering our tone..and he used to laugh on mute..heeeeeee very funnny nice memoriess..I still remember mom (while sipping her tea) yelling at Babanna for drinking so much tea and getting Diabeties..lol..Babanna u will live for ever in our hearts..thank God for the hope we have, We will meet soon till then R.I.P. Say hello to mom. Hope u both are having some good time there, mom yelling at u and u replying "kad akka..kadakka.."..You will be very proud of Vineeth and Chakni..R.I.P.
Lots of Love,
Dolly
DAD Was So Selfless, that he never used to celebrate his bday! All to save a penny that can be used in chakkani n me!
I asked him shd we get a Cake, "NO I WONT EAT SWEET".
Shd we go out, "No, I have to Work! We ll Go out for my son's Bday, which is in like 17 days"
He wouldnt even Buy new Clothes, Mom used to give me money so that we could buy him a shirt atleast!
Though he is not here, his love towards me chakkani and mom continues through all of YOU!
Thanks dad for the Sweetheart you have been to every one U LOVED!
Though there are a lot of things that could have been better with dad around, I Thank GOD for keeping us Content with what we have!
DAD,
I Wish to live upto ur Dreams for us!
Wish u were here, its gonna tough without you.
Chakkani Misses you the Most!
But you, God, see the trouble of the afflicted;
you consider their grief and take it in hand.
The victims commit themselves to you;
you are the helper of the fatherless.
Psalms 10:14
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