Slowly but Surely

In the Home Away from Home session-Changing "Attitudes and Thoughts" Positively held at KMC on 5th June(http://hahkmc.blogspot.com ), the question we were asked was, What do we think most of the time everyday?
Each of us had different answers, work, family, music, what to eat, how to shed weight?, etc...Since then I've been thinking of blogging about what do I think?

Each day my mind is bombarded with a constant stream of nagging thoughts, suspicions, doubts and fears, causing just a mental combat. I get discouraged about how far I had to go,and I am reminded of it every day, sometimes too often in a day! It’s true that we all still have a long way to go but somehow at some point in the day every now and then we tend to carry a constant sense of failure—a feeling that I just wasn’t who I needed to be, I wasn’t doing good enough, and I needed to try harder or do something else, rather give up?

 The fear of future or even the current comfort sometimes prevents us from starting anew, even when we know it’s quite probably the best thing we could do.Still, many times the fear of either starting or letting go paralyzes us to remain in an uncomfortable situation.
Every time I think of something and I feel, just if I get freedom in this area, everything would be all right. But then something else appears/happens that needs to be dealt with, and I’ll be back in that same frame of mind again, thinking, “If only I didn’t have this problem, I could be happy.”  I have been realizing again that I must learn to look at these things in a new way.
I want to enjoy myself while I am changing to adapt to new ways....
I want to enjoy the journey! and do not want to waste all of  my “now time” trying to rush into the future.
I remember the verse, tomorrow will have troubles of its own (Matthew 6:34).
and
Romans 5:1-5
Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we[a]have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, 2through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we[b] rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. 3Not only so, but we[c] also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; 4perseverance, character; and character, hope. 5And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.

I'm finding this process very difficult. Growing and learning is never easy, but the changes make us better people.We begin to think differently, then to talk differently, and finally, to act differently.
The important thing to remember is that even though we’re not perfect, but we’re still unique and God loves us all. Slowly but Surely, we will be changed.

My Prayer,
I’m not where I want to be, but I thank you Lord I’m not where I used to be.You've bought me so far and hence you would lead me through till the end.
I know with all my heart that you are with me all the while.
Thank you Lord for the Strength to persevere and Hope to Press On.
Amen.