The ANGST!

Today's News: Protests, slogans, posters, petitions, candles, flowers, tears, fears, rapes, deaths, crime everywhere!!!..  Rather this is everyday news!

Yesterday it was someone already forgotten, today its someone new and tomorrow it will be some one else! nothing seems to change much !!  

These are days I feel immobilized by the pain in the world and today is one such day!

It was more of a personal pain or more often by someone I love and now its about just some human out there. My mind thread kick starts from there just weaving on and on with all The ANGST!

I've been cutting off myself from the news sources. Yes, it helps for a while until reality intervenes at some other juncture. Its like, I can only ignore for a specific time, seems like!

A time of stupendous anxiety,deep breaths, tears beneath the thoughts and entangled knots deep within!

I was thinking what on such days?

Just trying to focus on unnoticed Graces of everyday Life, counting gifts, is a continuous cultivating habit since a long time now and only thing that helps are the words, the words of lament!

“Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.”

Matthew 11:28

Lament leads me where I need to be. Lament loosens something inside, opens doors and windows to howl out loud!

Lament, allows me to be me, to be real, to be honest.

I realize that I do not need reminders of God’s goodness, God’s plan, God’s sovereignty.

But when I’m sitting in the in-between, when I am walking through the valley — I just need to mourn as long as I need to.

To pour out the pain and make room for the praise, to exchange beauty for ashes! to realize that we are safe in the presence of God.

And there is not one thing cliche about that.

Amen!

Prayer:

Our Father in Heaven, Thank you Lord for your presence ALWAYS! Help me to bear with this temporal life and patiently wait for you my KING.

All GLORY be to you Father! In Jesus name I ask, Amen.