One life.....

Was just wailing away time going through the pics and was stuck at this pic of mine today...

While Divya and I went to this place in Vizag, the view was too good, the trees, plants, beach and what I observed there were few burials. I was contemplating about life and death. Many of us sway away when we talk about death. But for that matter its a serious topic to be pondered upon and not to remember about death only in funerals and memorials.

One Life, a little gleam of time between two eternities. -Thomas Carlyle

And many of them that sleep in the dust of the earth shall awake, some to everlasting life, and some to shame and everlasting contempt.Daniel 12:2

Romans 8th chapter is a wonderful chapter where we learn how to move on in present sufferings for future glory!  Living life by HIS Spirit and then, be convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

There is no fight left but only insight...

Let God's blessings Rain...

The friends we make and friends we leave..
The emotions we make and emotions we break!
The family we have when the family is not around..
All I have is a tear to shed and a smile in pain...
But memories remain....
Only the memories remain...
Let God's blessings Rain...

Trails bring testimonies...

GOD has been faithful and merciful towards my family..PRAISE GOD for HIS LOVE ENDURES FOREVER!

Its just one month that Dad was sick and now, mom takes her turn! But this time tooo ONLY by GOD's grace we endured it yet again! PRAISE and HONOR and GLORY be to HIM alone!

I was riding home with a grateful heart and suddenly heard crackers burst on the road, I just choked in fear the immediate moment. Then within msecs another cracker bursts, and I choked a little less this time.. then for third I was like preparing to hear more of it and was choking less for each sound, gradually after a series of cracker bursts I was irritated for a while then as it continued it dint bother me much, coz I chose to ignore it...Once I passed that Lane, it was so calm n silent on the road, I was feeling all peaceful and was thinking and correlating this occurrence to our lives..How similar it is...When Trails come, we choke hard, fear attacks, then when yet another trail comes, though we fear it we feel little better, later on, more and more trails...testing times are highly prone to irritability for me, fear all around! fighting the thoughts in mind! coz we know it all the more that its just a phase and we are awaiting for eternity which is very close at the end of the road...

I was thinking and questioning myself IF this is what is called as enduring trails?!

Where else can I find an answer for trails?! :) Here it is:

James Chapter 1: 2-18
Trials and Temptations


2 Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters,[a] whenever you face trials of many kinds, 
3 because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. 
4 Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. 
5 If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. 
6 But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind.
7 That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. 
8 Such a person is double-minded and unstable in all they do.
9 Believers in humble circumstances ought to take pride in their high position. 
10 But the rich should take pride in their humiliation—since they will pass away like a wild flower. 
11 For the sun rises with scorching heat and withers the plant; its blossom falls and its beauty is destroyed. In the same way, the rich will fade away even while they go about their business.
12 Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love him.
13 When tempted, no one should say, “God is tempting me.” For God cannot be tempted by evil, nor does he tempt anyone; 
14 but each person is tempted when they are dragged away by their own evil desire and enticed. 
15 Then, after desire has conceived, it gives birth to sin; and sin, when it is full-grown, gives birth to death.
16 Don’t be deceived, my dear brothers and sisters. 
17 Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows. 
18 He chose to give us birth through the word of truth, that we might be a kind of firstfruits of all he created.

This verse, hit me the most:

6.But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. 7 That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. 8 Such a person is double-minded and unstable in all they do.

This verse encouraged me:

12 Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love him.

An Activa, A Blessing

My Journey.........

The moment I posted this pic on facebook, I was little scared if I was flaunting too much..but then made up my mind to blog about this new blessing I received today, because I want to Praise God for this Blessing and nothing else...and hence, din't want a delay in writing it...so here it goes...

The journey of owning a vehicle began way back in the year 2007 when I came to Bangalore, I always wanted to own a 2 wheeler but I delayed it and kept on postponing it knowingly just to buy a car, but was yearning for it deep inside though. An year back the craze started off again like an ignition, to buy a car, searched for few cars, took suggestions and help from friends but didn't happen!  Thanks to all of my friends who were bearing my talk and thoughts which were really very volatile :)

Then slowly somehow the craze for a bullet crept into me! really love the way it looks, except for the sound it makes ;)...was all excited and was really thinking of buying it and added to this feeling, a lady in Bangalore buys a Harley Davidson!! and dad agrees with me to buy it! ohho suchaa temptation it was! but good I sustained it and did not act in haste :)

Then the accident, I'd rather call it a Blessing in Disguise :) I could get enough love and attention from my loved ones, accumulated all the more fat, had a time for myself for 6 long months..

In Jan 2012, once I got back to work, traveling in crowded buses, the first day itself someone stamping my wounded foot in bus, long standing hours in bus and then I actually, seriously started praying about it. That's when I've got my Prayer answered, In HIS Time :) Yes, I did not stress myself about taking this decision as I struggled all the while since 2007, but yes I made the decision with much ease and I am glad that I booked my Activa Honda-White on Feb 6th 2012 and Yes, today, 18th of Feb 2012 I've bought it home :) Tomorrow is going to be our first ride to the Church! :)

I even had a lingering thought that why did I wait all these years to buy an Activa, I could have bought it in 2007 itself. But then I pondered on how things were, I am grateful to GOD that all these years I din't have the need, my company had provided me cab and It was a blessing to travel in cab in Bangalore.

All I want to do is Thank and Praise God for His thoughts and plans are higher than ours and they are SIMPLY PERFECT!

Now is the time, Hence He granted it! only by HIS grace can I travel on the Activa. I am not the proud owner of my Activa, but It is the LORD who has bestowed HIS Blessing and He owns it! 

Thank You Lord! Thank You so much! 

Many, O LORD my God, are thy wonderful works which thou hast done, and thy thoughts which are to us-ward: they cannot be reckoned up in order unto thee: if I would declare and speak of them, they are more than can be numbered. 

Psalm 40:5

I Testify, yet another testimony......

It was 26th Jan 2012.. The republic day...a holiday...

was at home and it was a day with holiday chores and preparation for a friends wedding that evening..had good time at the wedding and came home around 10:30pm and was getting ready to sleep, then I got a call from Chinni(my lovely younger sister), and I in my usual tone answered the call and it was the least expected news!

She said, "akka just called to say that dad is little unwell and we took him to hospital and he is under observation and is fine.."

This din't make any sense to me, she was saying dad is under observation and also was saying he is doing well...I just couldn't control my tears and dint have any way to reach him...hate these distances for this matter! 

I was praying and struggling with the idiotic thoughts the satan was giving me...I was in the battlefield of my mind..

Since the ECG report was not fine, the doctors had to keep daddy under observation and proceed with Angiogram to check if there were any blockages in the veins. The term angiogram itself scared me soo much! 

Next day, It was a friday, I had rushed to office with my luggage all ready to go home and see dad! that was all I was wanting to do, though I was told by my friends and relatives that  he is already in hospital and has doctors around to help and check.. 

I would say it was the toughest day at work, with emotions running all over and much deeper as I had joined back the project after many months after the accident and they  were kind enough to offer me a role with the same client. All these confusions and fears made it more tougher for me, I did not know what not to think and what to think! was just taxing myself sooo much that too knowingly!:( Thank GOD! I call it "was" and the phase has passed by!

Doctors conveyed that the angiogram had to be done and it was scheduled to happen at 3:30pm.  I had decided to take a flight to Hyd and go see dad...!

I wanted to take the immediate flight once I reach the airport, and it was at 5:30pm. I started from work at 2:30 and just reached airport at 4:30pm and was yet to buy the ticket, That's when I got a call from chinni, saying that the angiogram was successful and nothing serious. The doctors  who did the angiogram were surprised to see no blockages, since dad being a long standing diabetic, he was susceptible to changes. They identified that the blood flow was slow and was given medicines for 2 weeks. Thank and praise God for the miracle he did to dad. 

The doctor there told my sis," Your dad is lucky" to which my sis replied, "He is Blessed" Yes! Indeed He is Blessed! what A Blessing we share in HIM.. He is Jehovah Rapha, the healer, He is Jehovah Jireh, our provider!
Now dad has joined back work last week and is doing good by God's grace. Love you, daddy! Love you so much for being a blessing to us all..All Praise and Glory and Honor be to JESUS alone...!

Filled with gratitude and can't stop praising the LORD for the mercies HE shows  day in and day out. I did not travel home that day and so was able to attend Don Moen's concert the next day and that was a Blessing too. I specially thank The Church, friends and relatives who had prayed and were an encouragement to me in such time.

Thank You soo much Jesus! Blessed be your name!

Psalm 28:6-9

King James Version (KJV)

 ⁶Blessed be the LORD, because he hath heard the voice of my supplications.

 ⁷The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusted in him, and I am helped: therefore my heart greatly rejoiceth; and with my song will I praise him.

 ⁸The LORD is their strength, and he is the saving strength of his anointed.

 ⁹Save thy people, and bless thine inheritance: feed them also, and lift them up for ever.

You deserve the glory
And the honor
Lord, we lift our hands in worship
As we lift your Holy name (Repeat)

Chorus:

For You are great
You do miracles so great
There is no one else like You
There is no one else like You (repeat)

On the fly...

Woke up with thoughts on emotions and feelings...and wrote this...


Emotions are a lie, 
Don't be so high!
Feelings run dry, 
Don't you deny!
Life is battle cry,
But Jesus is our Rabbi !

All to end in a blink of an eye
Then we meet up in the sky!
And bid a good-bye
Time just runs by,
Until then abide by!